Laura's
Playground presents the Transgendered Poetry of Lillianna.
A
Night To Remember
It
came one night when I was home and all alone
When I got a call on the telephone
And all I could hear is heavy breathing
And the clatter of something teething
When all of a suddden I heard something upstairs
And then I just could not bear
The sight of this thing full of life
Was a thing in curlers called a wife
(c)
Lilianna 5-19-05
When
will Johnny come marching home....
This
is dedicated to those serving past, present, and future
Who
is sorry now
When the younger men go to war, and never return
Many of them are burned, beyond recognition
Why is it that people in the Congress do not stop... To look at human
life?
Not as an instrument, nor pawn to be used for a war without meaning
And hear the song,"Johnny, comes marching home" fading into
oblivion
When Johnny does not come marching home
Who says that you must go and do
Your duty, when you know that you have a fifty-zero chance
Of ever making it out of the war alive.....
Maybe,
someday, somewhere, somehow, someone will, and I pray to God, that they
will realize what the true meaning of a human life is......
(c)
Lilianna 5-19-05
Dear
Old Grandpa
Home
all alone sitting in the chair
The old gray haired man stared and stared
He would not move, he would not budge
Maybe he is holding a grudge
Maybe he sees something that I don't see
Or maybe he is dreaming.......
For all he seemed to be doing..is boiling coffee water until its steaming
Then back he goes to the chair
Where the gray haired man stares and stares..
(c)
Lilianna 5-19-05
Guys
G=
The gentleman that you are
(Us girls greatly appreciate it very much!)
U= The undertanding that you support us
Y=
You know how to sweet talk us(Wink)
s=
Sweet caring men there you are, never change
When
you add this up you get...
Best
Friend
(c) Lilianna 5-21-05
Come
take my hand.....
I
can remember the first day that we had met
And how you looked that day
Remembering what others would say
That couple over there seem to be in love
Above there heads there flys a dove
Walking hand in hand together to be
It is easy for love to see
Within their hearts beating as one
The song of love has now begun
The gentle caress of his hands on my face
We go back to his place
Cuddle we do close to be
I feel that I am very lucky
For now this man will be a part of my life
I will say I do to become his wife....
(c)
5-21-05 Lilianna
To
the poets 3......
I
love to write about things that I love
To reach new heights from above
Happy I am to be
I am with the poets 3
They
write as well my sister's do
Hoping to make you happy too!
Happy I am to be
I am with the poets 3
Pen
in hand ideas a churnin
The midnight oil still keeps burnin
Happy I am to be
I am with the poets 3
My
new found friends I cherish so
I really want you to know
Happy I am to be
I am with the poets 3
Dedicated
to Jalynn, Kristin, and of course yours truly!
(c)
5-23-05 Lilianna
I
am not your father.....
Father...You
over there yes you come here
I have to tell you something so very clear
I am not your father Lilianna you see
I have disowned you you will never be
Lilianna...Anger
and hate brews within your mind
How could you not be so kind
Why do you hate me, father I want to know
Is it becasue I have learnd to sew?
I am daughter not son
You can not change what has been done
If I have to I will run
Go to a place with there is sun
Never to be troubled by your hate
For now I know about your fate
Father....You
are nothing to me so go away
You are a monster I must say
You are my son and that will never change
Even when you have rearranged.. yourself
Lilianna...Then
let it be if that is your wish
I will become beautiful by compare
With a beautiful smile and really long hair
See I can live with myself just being me
For all the world to see
They will know me by name and my good deeds
I no longer have to be your son
For
I am woman in mind and soul
(c)Lilianna
5-28-05
This is dedicated to my good friend
Kasandra who always has for me a box of chocolates at the ready .. I
dearly Thank you Kasandra ^_^
A
Box of Chocolates....
When
you recieve a box of chocolates you always wonder what kind you are
going to get?
You take the plastic wrap off to reveal the box discard the wrapper
You open it to see the many pieces of chocolates in their indiviual
compartments
Some filled with nuts, others filled with cream
Some filled with peanut butter "Oh yes! I scream!"
As I place it in my mouth Oh how it melts like a dream
Remember not to have to many(Have to watch my figure you know)
What is it that makes chocolate part of us?
Is it the fact that when you have romance the guy is stating that you
are sweet too!
I wonder and hope that I do melt in his mouth and in his arms
Sugar, spice that makes me very nice
So now I role the dice
And what do I see
A guy that I call my special Honey!
So when you get that next box of chocolates just remember this
A kiss is not just a kiss but something very special!
(c)
Lilianna 5-28-05
H= Help others and to help yourself
R= Rights that we have to be
T= Transgendered I am now you see
HRT
Even
though it is supposed to be
A form if you will to really help me
Replace what used to be with what is now
Oh my family please do not have a cow....
Be supportive for me cause I will truly change
Softer and more feminine I will be
I will truly be so happy!
To my sister's who are already there please save a place for me
I will be by your side as a sister should be
We walk upon this world the women we are
I hope that I will be able to get a fancy sports car
With my change my job will change too!
I will start a new field which will really be new
I can only wish for me
That I can just be.......
(c)
Lilianna 5-28-05
Dance
away the blues ...
Here
I am on a saturday night lying in bed
Thinking to myself Oh how I dread
To get up in the morning's when I am so alone
It was then I heard the ring of the phone
I was not able to get to the phone on time
Played the message only to find
That the message was about little ol me
That is when I begin to see.........
I
turn up the radio really loud
And dance to the beat
The song was sad and I was fellin blue
I knew what I had to do
Dance away the blues.......
He
called me up and started to say
I knew that he was goin away
I .. just cried all day
My
heart sank from night to day
Sadness broke my heart I say
When I am down and feelin blue
That is when I just knew
Dance away the blues........
Swaying
to the other end of the room
The problem seemd to mushroom
I will never see him again
What am I to do....
Dance
away the blues you see
Sadness fills my heart don't you see and,
What am I to do
He is gone and I am feeling blue
Now that he has gone away
I cried for days and days
My life was over what can I do
Just dance away, Dance away the blues.......
(c)
Lilianna 5-28-05
The love of her eyes.....
I
never understood why I feel the way I do
Is it because something is telling me to?
My mind is that of beautiful grace
My figure is one that you would love to trace
Smiling as I gaze at this wonderful guy
He sees the love that is in her eyes
My
heart pounds to a racing beat
I start to feel overwhelmed by heat
The magic of Love as we do
I tell him that I am so in Love with you
And
just when he asks me to dance
And probably hope to continue this romance
I wake up to no one by my side
It is then I really start to cry
Where
did he go I ask myself
Feeling like something placed upon a shelf
The dust just collects upon me as you can see
Is it bad just being me?
Lonely
I will go in life
Never to have loved a man or be his wife
Tears run down my face in streams
To only hear my silent scream
For
the Love of her eyes is so true
The point being is that she is due
A path, A journey, a road if you will
Please I do not want to take the pill
Just then what a wonderful surprise
You will see the guy and the Love of her eyes
