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Being me......

It's great to be me
For all to see
How happy we can be
It's great to be me.....

Feeling carefree
and all will notice me
The beauty in me is what they will see
It's great to be me.....

Smiling knowing what I will be
A beautiful woman for all to see
Oh how happy I will be
It's great to be me........

So if you sad and feeling blue
Let me tell you what you can do
Look for the beauty in me
Then you will know it's great to be me....

(c) Lilianna
5-10-05

Going Home..........

There are those who blame
And those who should be ashamed
Words that cut oh so deep
Can only ask for eternal sleep
I close my eyes and make my plee
Please Father please take me
Oh Father when will you bring me home......

The violence that we have today
All over things in the gray
Black and white, paper, voice be heard
There is one thing that can be assured
Oh Father when will you take me in.......

A clap of thunder voice so clear
I know my Father is very near
I ask Oh Father please take me
His voice there to comfort me

Spirit soaring into the sky
I have now died
No tear be shed, please don't cry
For now I am on the other side

(c) Doc 5-11-05

Never been in Love.....

Have you ever wondered, ponder the thought at times
Is it or is it not that passion is a crime
I have met many people in my life
Yet never been in love.....

The feelings that I feel
Are very, very real
Yet I can never seem to be
In love....

How can I exist without being loved?
How can I continue to go on?
Never to feel the warm embrace
Never to have the hands touch my face
Never to experience as lover's do
Is this the only way for me, too!

Never been in Love
Sad I do feel
Tears of sadness streaking down my face
It's hard to keep the emotion without a trace
For the sadness I do feel
Never been in love...I wish I knew it was real!

(c) Lilianna
5-12-05

My Journey.........

You may ask yourself when did this begin
How do you get started...
Well It started with me at the age of 5 yrs old
This is where the story unfolds
It was then in the summer 1960's that I wore my first dress
With such success
Ever since then I knew who I was
It was trying to hide the cause
See my dad would never have allowed me to be in a dress
Let alone be the girl that I am to be the best
You may think of this as fetish but to me I was me
I was comfortable in the clothes for me to be
My dad on the other hand would have done me in
But life for me would never end
I look back to see me through the years
And try to fight back all the tears
It was hard for me to find the help that I needed
The Therapist I saw was no help at all
For he laughed at me, said cruel disgusting things at me
I did not understand what he was looking for and here I am
Listening to him.. Maybe the Therapist becomes the patient And I become the doctor??
People do not understand how we feel
They seem to judge us which is for real
Yet here we are the ones to save them from harm
Yet we are the ones that they say are cause for alarm
I spoke with my doctor and opened up to them to let them know how I feel
I was told I would get help... (Don't hold your breath to long or else you will turn blue! )So she stated I would go to Endo specialist....The hands of time still keep going forward and no response..I guess I will not be seeing anything of that nature will soon!

My Journey has been very unique, but I would never trade my friends for they are Golden and true and are the very best!

For that I thank you all!

I wish that all who are going thru the changes well and if I can change too I will stand side by side with my sisters!

Love,

Lilianna

Life is a path to walk upon, never knowing what direction it will take you!
(c) 5-13-05

The Beginning from seed to flower..

The seed of life is nutured and taken care of day by day
And even though there are clouds the sky turns gray
Placed in the hole I go waiting to flourish for all to see
Soon I start to sprout just to be me
With tender loving care I grow each and every day
My body now transforms to that of a bud
Budding I am only to be
The pretty flower for all to see
Beauty that I show
For everyone to know
How happy we all will be.......

(c) 5-15-05
Lilianna
Love me I do!

 

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