Laura's Playground presents the Transgendered Poetry of Eli an FTM.

Confusion Of A Hateful Mind

It's hard.
And it's confusing.
And I don't want to be this way.
And if I could I would jump in front of a passing train.
And if I could I would go to sleep and never wake up.
And I don't want to hurt them.
But I do want to be me.
But I know they won't understand.
And I know some don't understand.
And I know they never will.

I am not your baby girl.
Don't get me wrong, I have tried.
My old councelor told me I thought to much into things.
I just wanted to understand things more.
But no... I just thought too much into things.

Because, well, it's obvious, isn't it?
I have a... a...
I don't have a penis.
I wasn't born with one.
So get over it.
You idiotic jerk..
Just fit already.
See that box! Fit into it!


Elijah Fry (2005)