even kittens cry
Posted by Kris, Aug 29 2007, 12:08 AM
even kittens cry
i do not know what esle to say.
to tired
Posted by Kris, Aug 27 2007, 06:05 PMi am to tired to think to write to sleep when i am a wake i feel like going back to bed but cant sleep i am just so tired
I Don’t Know How I Got This Way
Posted by Kris, Aug 20 2007, 12:11 PMwell there is no easy way of saying nor am i trying to play a victim cuase what i have done to you all is not right. Well tbh with you i do not know why ido this or I got this way. I have lied to you all about who i am and my life. I done this many times and this site is not the only place i have done this i have been banned and lost friends due to my lieing. I am not IS i was born male i forgot all what i have siad and told some ppl so i do not know all what to say other then i am sorry and have lost a grip with who the real me is, i have became so lost in the lies over the years i lost grip with the real me and have become a shell of aa person and just act and play who i am makeing up. I do nto knwo what else to say if you want to hate me i understand its not the frist time that i lost everythign and ppl i know due to this.
I Don’t Know How I Got This Way
Posted by Kris, Aug 20 2007, 11:37 AM
this song is all i feel and can say atm. I will make a other post in my blog and on the fourms later today.
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I’m picking me apart again
You all assume
I’m safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)
I don’t want to be the one
The battles always choose
‘Cause inside I realize
That I’m the one confused
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don’t know why I instigate
And say what I don’t mean
I don’t know how I got this way
I know it’s not alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
I’ll paint it on the walls
‘Cause I’m the one at fault
I’ll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don’t know how I got this
I’ll never be alright
So I’m
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight
Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ezSGqbuo0g
Yeah
Posted by Kris, Aug 2 2007, 05:23 AMman i just got it to work something i been working on for few days now got it to work i been so stressed over it and was getting to the point of giving up and quteing the team but i got it to work so it makes me feel better that i got it to work and a vild member of the team i am on. For a while i felt so useless to the team even thou they kept saying what i am doing no one can do on the team so now i can move on and try to get everything pieced tougher.
Just Thoughts
Posted by Kris, Aug 1 2007, 04:51 PMI wise i knew what to do. I feel trapped and now way out. Feel like my life is going somewhere but I am cross road and do not know where to go. If I go one way then what will happen and will it be better then the other? Just wise knew what to do and what to say.
Where To Start
Posted by Kris, Aug 1 2007, 12:29 PM
well where to start. I been trying to write a letter to who i do not know even if it for anyone. With in the letter just my feelings about my life and what all as happen with in my life so far, its not easy to put what as happen to you in your life into words much less how you fell about them, writeing this letter has made me stop and think about my life and how i feel and look inside of me, so i gusse by doing this i better understand who i am and have become. Its funny how one song can make you think so much and think about life the song that i been playing over and over that is makeing me do this is Oasis - Wonderwall here is a link to it.
Oasis - Wonderwall
on to tired