Noteworthy Clininc
Posted by Jenny, Aug 28 2008, 04:53 PM
Another Go
Posted by Jenny, Aug 9 2008, 06:41 PM
So I don't know if anyone remembered I was trying to diet...well I managed to lose 55 pounds. I am down to 190, I am working on a little more though but not as aggresively.
I use an online make up consultant to pick my colours this time. It looks a lot more natural now, except for the eyeliner, apparently I have to try something else.
I put my new picture up. Seems a lot more natural, grown up, and confident than last years I would say.
Love you all, hugs. Look forward to hearing from you.
I'm Back For A Little Bit, Then Later More...
Posted by Jenny, Jul 5 2008, 07:26 AM
Hi all,
it's been awhile. The argument within me rages harder than ever. Hard to believe it's been a year so I came to grips with myself.
I purged once again and then bought once again.
My wife is leaving in August so I will be on again and I can open up again and be myself. I will be talking to you girls then.
See you soon.
Morning To The Self
Posted by Jenny, Mar 15 2008, 10:11 AM
My wife went out for a little while so I get to let the girl in me out for awhile too. Glad to know everyhing I got recently fits well.
It gives me a moment of feeling great and upset all at the same time.
Hard to describe how I am feeling right now, home but not.
If that makes any sense.
Truth Or Dare...
Posted by Jenny, Feb 26 2008, 06:05 PM
The dare (or for me, daring): I bought a pair of red high heels, how high you ask? Well I have never been there before....to the tune of four inches. I thought I would get a pair, besides every girl needs a pair of red high heels.
The truth: I walked around for a little while with them and my feet hurt, lol.
Cogiati
Posted by Jenny, Feb 12 2008, 06:05 PM
I have been thinking of a particular question on that test, where it said "If you died tomorrow, would you rather be remembered as a male or a female?" I never really cared in some sense because...I would be dead. The, yes to get back to it, I kept going over the whole FFS discussion in my head. I have been giving it a lot of thought, and everyone knows my opinion that I want to have it down because I want any resemblance of my masculinity gone. Well going back to that question; I would rather live my life, if I had to live as a male, as a feminine looking male than a masculine looking female.
Basically if I ever had to stay as a male for whatever reasons, I'd rather be feminine.
So I guess when it comes down to it, and I don't remember the sequence very much, not that it is set anyway. I think I would get the FFS before a GRS. Some peple imght say the GRS is more important and I agree but the GRS would definately be coming as soon as I was able to after FFS. I guess you can say I fell into the age old societal pressure but I want to look as feminine and as beautiful as I feel.
This Is Like Heaven
Posted by Jenny, Feb 12 2008, 05:56 PM
I got a pair of blue valour track pants and I am in Heaven. They hug my thighs ever so close and they don't feel tight. I never knew what comfortable was until I got these track pants.........sorry I swear I am glowing.
Just to clear things up; when I do my shopping, it is more on line than anything else.
Sorry I am going to enjoy my pants, I never knew one can draw so much enjoyment from pants, ewwwww.
Shopping Round One
Posted by Jenny, Feb 11 2008, 11:07 PM
So I just finished spending a wack load of money on getting new clothes, but I like them. When I get a chance I will post some pictures.
In the mean time I am getting to the point where I can't wait any longer to talk to a counsellor. I am also realizing that if I lose my friends and colleagues there is nothing I can do, I have to live with myself and I can't get another, but I can always make new friends and this website has proved that. I think I have almost gotten to the point where I have enough confidence to do start working towards being me.
Shopping
Posted by Jenny, Feb 6 2008, 10:19 PMI love shopping and it hasn't stopped yet. This wardrobe is better than the last. I so want to start rle, in one sense I think it would be great but dealing with all the realities of social interactions would definately not be a good thing I can imagine.
The Wardrobe Is Coming Back
Posted by Jenny, Feb 1 2008, 11:00 PM
I got a whole slew of clothes but I haven't got everything yet, no shirts. I got pants, skirts, panties and they...well I just get carried away with shopping it's great until I have to pay for it all, lol.
I had an opportunity to call a counsellor and I didn't. I don't know why, hopefully I do it soon, I feel like I am going to burst. I let a person at work, in the military, know my views on transsexualism. We had a long talk about it; saying that people react the same way to TS as they did to homosexuality years ago. I know it's not fully accepted, but there is a greater deal of acceptance now compared to then. He agreed.
So things are going okay.
on Morning To The Self