Little Angel

 

Translate

Page

 

Menu

Home

About Us

What's New Transsexuality - Just Updated

Transgendered News Transgendered news; Updated Daily

Advice Column

Transgender Articles Transsexual, Crossdressers, Transsexuals Articles

Biography

Transgender Calendar Transgender Transsexual  Online Counseling - Calendar

Transgender FAQ's

Transgender Transsexual Children Transgender Children, Transsexual Children

Transgender Transgender, Transgendered. Transgenders

CrossDressers CD

Transsexuals, TS

Female to Male Transsexual FTM

Male to Female Transsexual MTF

Transgender Teens Transsexual, Transgender, crossdresser Teens

Transgender Wives Partners & Family

Members Pages Transsexual, Transgender, Crossdresser  Member  Pages

Androgyny Androgyny, Androgynous

Intersexed Intersex, intersexed, intersexxed

Laura's Transgender Resources Laura's Transsexual, Transgender,  Resources

Transgender Online Suicide Prevention

Transgender Online Support Groups

Transgender Spirituality

Live Transgendered Chat

Transgender Forums Transgender, Transsexual, Crossdressers,  Forums

Transgender Surveys, Research

Transgender Fun Stuff Transsexual Online Support  and Counseling

Transgender Blogs

Venutian Universe

Transgender Online Games

Transgender Photo Albums Transsexual Pic - Update

Transgender Links

Girl's Life

Guy Stuff

Software & News Transsexual Transgender Software

Privacy Policy


E-mail Me

E-mail us

 

Vote Here

  Create and View Transgender Polls

 

Button Central

Cross Dressing - Please sign our Guestbook

Transgender News - Link To Us

 

 


Transgender Suicide Prevention Online Chat

GLBT Counseling Hotline

Trevor Project GLBT Suicide Prevention Hotline

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Butterfly Arrangement
From Crossdresser to Transsexual .....IS IT POSSIBLE? ~

Originally titled - FROM CD TO TS.....IS IT POSSIBLE?

by Annie

We talk about many issues in our chatroom, but one of the most
hotly debated subjects I've ever been involved in there has been
that of the fetishistic crossdresser and whether or not a CD is
transsexual.


There are many among us who believe that if one becomes sexually
aroused by the donning of women's clothing, or by simply THINKING
about metamorphosing into a female, then that individual is not
truly transsexual, but a man with a fetish.


I was one of those "aroused" CDs once, and I can state categor-
ically that I have NEVER considered myself a man-- not even a
male, in fact. I have always been an "incomplete woman".


Then, how can I reconcile that so often I utilized a part of me
that, by TS definition, I should have loathed? There's no question
that functioning in a male capacity was INCREDIBLY conflicting for
me. Given a choice, I'd have had no sexuality whatsoever.


How many crossdressers can identify with this: Being excited while
dressed as a woman, relieving that tension (you know how) and then
feeling disgusted with yourself afterward? You can't get out of
the clothing or wash that makeup off fast enough. Sound familiar?


What causes this cycle of arousal, excitement, climax, brief plea-
sure, self-loathing and then divestment? Is it the societal pro-
gramming that would have us believe that this is all deviant be-
havior, -OR- does it go deeper than that, strike us at our hearts?


Is it possible that way down inside, all crossdressers, even the
ones who adamanantly deny it, are just as transsexual as the gal
who never had an erection in her life prior to SRS? If the latter
is the case, it would definitely explain a lot. What clearer re-
minder that one's male body is out of sync with her female mind
is there than this ultimate act of masculine self-gratification?
Can the disgust that comes later be NOT with the act itself or
the clothing, but with the undeniable enforced maleness of one's
physicality?


All this is conjectural, and strictly my opinion. Yours is just
as valid, and I respect any differences you may have with me.


Now, let's turn briefly to those who believe that crossdressers
are just men with fetishes...


In 1998, I took blood tests prior to beginning HRT. I was 44 at
the time. It greatly surprised me to find out that my blood tes-
tosterone level was WAY too high. Normal levels are somewhere be-
tween 300 and 650 units, while MY level was over 1000! The doctor
told me joshingly that if I were at all evil, I'd probably be an
axe murderer. Some joke.


I was WAY oversexed in middle age-- imagine how high my levels
must have been in my prime! This blood test revelation explained
why I had been so easily "turned on" all the time. You get enough
"juice" in your veins and you cannot control what it does to you.


So, I think that the gals who say they've never been aroused in a
male way naturally have extremely -LOW- levels of testosterone in
their systems. It is troubling that SOME of these hormonally for-
tunate ladies would deny me and others our rightful claims to
transsexuality because of the uncontrollable arousal self-femini-
zing has for us. HAD, in my case-- the whole experience for me was
ultimately non-fulfilling, and the need to truly metamorphose
pushed me forward, into HRT and my current state of assexuality,
prior to SRS.


If you are a crossdresser or transvestite and believe that you
are, when all is said and done, a MAN, I accept that. But, if deep-
down, you feel that you just MAY be transsexual, I truly understand!


Annie

Are You a Transgenderist?

Autogynephillia, Baily, Blanchard, Lawrence, Dregar Controversy

The Fetishization of "Wannabe" Transsexualism

Views expressed are the opinion of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of Laura's Playground.

Sign our Guestbook

Free ScreenSavers from Laura's Playground

Rate Us

 

Bookmark us