Dear Alone,

First things first. Before you can start working on being
transgendered you need to be screened for any underlying
causes.  That means getting a physical and mental evaluation. While I'm not a psychiatrist, I can only talk from my own 55 years of experience.

You need to be screened for depression and possibly OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. These diagnosis's are quite common in transgendered folks.  Its possible that all you need is the proper medication to help you stop the buzzing in your brain.
After that is solved and your brain becomes your own again will you be able to make the decisions to solve your Transgendered dilemma much more easily.

Next, you should see a gender counselor. Also start visiting Transgendered Forums and chat rooms to find someone you can talk to. One word of caution: Stay away from bitter people who have nothing but discouraging words for you. They may not have solved their own psychological dilemmas yet. You will find plenty of warm hearted people to chat with. Don't forget to listen as well as talk though.

Remember you are NOT alone. Lots of non-transgendered folk have underlying depression and OCD. Don't forget that
Transgenderism is not YOUR fault. It is not a lifestyle choice as some would have you believe.  Eventually, you WILL solve these problems.  After that You'll know what you need to do.

Good luck and get going

Love,

Laura